Tight Pants

Today I got excited because I could still fit into a pair of my regular pants. What I didn’t realize is that they fit fine while I was standing; after an hour of sitting at work, they became incredibly uncomfortable. When you sit, your stomach has no where to go but out; particularly when you are expecting. The pants quickly became permanently unzipped – I spent most of the day hoping no one would walk in my office and need me to stand up. It would be embarrassing for all involved.

I don’t mind showing; I am actually excited about being obviously pregnant. I am merely baffled by the fact that I have only gained a pound yet my belly has changed so much. It has crept up my stomach and can no longer be sucked in for any period of time greater than 10 seconds. Right now nothing fits – not my normal clothes and not maternity clothes.

The beginning of the second trimester is an awkward stage of pregnancy. I don’t enjoy not feeling pregnant. The nauseated feeling I had after work reminded me everyday that something big was happening in my body. Now, I sort of feel normal. The nausea is gone and I don’t have to run to the bathroom every 30 minutes. I don’t have an obvious baby tummy to rub and can’t feel the baby move. While I know that something is different, I don’t feel pregnant.

I relish not really having to worry about my weight. I am not eating everything in site, but I am pregnant and I don’t need to worry about looking fat. No longer can my mother in law comment on whether or not I have been exercising. No longer do I need to worry about my clothes being tight; I get to buy ones that stretch. (I love that!) I just want to get to the point where it is obvious to others, and to me, that I am having a baby.

Tonight I plan to pack away the pants I am wearing today; they will be banished to the basement with all my other “regular” clothes. They hung on longer than most and I look forward to seeing them again in the New Year.