I did what???

My mom visited this weekend. It was a nice visit that brought to light some of my fears about becoming a mother.

While my mom was showing me all the cute things she brought for the SheBean, it hit me like a head on collision- I am going to become a mom. I have a little girl growing inside of me who is going to love me and be completely irritated by my every action once she reaches a certain age. She will someday have pig tails and wear cute dresses and then grow up to see my every flaw and feel the need to point them out. I will get under her skin quicker than anyone else in the world – minus, maybe, her mother in law- and she will have an unwavering adoration of her father. (An adoration that he will truly deserve)

I know how hard I was on my mom while we lived together and how hard I continue to be on her. Mother and daughter relationships mystify me and I can not believe my body is now in the process of creating one. I am scared to death of the SheBean.

That being said, there are not words to describe how happy I am to be carrying her for these ten months – no matter my fears or how hard I find pregnancy. She is developing well and appears healthy. There is nothing more I could want in my life.