HOLY SHIT, I am having a baby.

Today I had my 37 week appointment and it scared the shit out of me. Last week the baby was high, my cervix was long and very tight. The doctor didn’t think we should expect anything for several weeks. Today, the Bean is “very low” and I am 50% effaced. The doctor is now singing a new tune. She said the Bean could come tonight or a week after my due date but was she surprised by the rapid change in status and suggested we get things in order.

I have been mentally preparing myself for a late baby and this development made me think she could arrive early. I started crying the second we left the office. Late arrival I am ready for; early arrival, not so much. Nothing at work is ready for my departure and I don’t even have my hospital bag packed.